I Don’t Know if it Will Work, and That’s Okay

Hey squad, we are now 5 followers deep and that’s a big accomplishment for this poor misguided personal journal of mine. That’s probably a bit harsh of a criticism on myself because really…this is for me, and for you if you take anything away from my entries. It will get more guided over time. That’s a perfect intro for my next sentiments.

All Beginnings Feel a Bit Rough…at Least for Me

When I started this blog I had no idea if it would work…I still really don’t, but I’m here fairly consistently. I’ve begun to make peace with the idea that there are things that are simply beyond my control. Perspective is key. Why did I initially sign up for this blog in the first place? I didn’t sign up for it with the intent of it being a 6-figure a year passive income juggernaut! That would be incredibly dope, but that wasn’t my “why”…at least not for TodayTheory anyway. I always wanted to start a blog, and I wanted to journal…and that was my “why”. Mission accomplished. I don’t want to lose sight of that, and when analytics are involved (likes, views, etc.) it is indeed very easy to get side-tracked. This blog doesn’t generate a bunch of traffic, but it is successful in the sense that since it’s creation I find myself revisiting my posts and using them as a reminder that I’m responsible for holding myself accountable to my goals. I’m reminded that others opinions of me are not all that significant and that I am the captain of this ship that is my life. The blog is helping me to do that and stay in the lane I’m creating for myself. All things in my life haven’t been peachy, but whenever I truly dedicate myself to anything I’ve always managed to get it done and accomplish great things.

Analytics…Ssshmanalytics!

The numbers aren’t great…who cares! When you assess your “why” (unless your why is to have kickass analytics) you have to stay motivated behind that, and ONLY that. Hopefully whatever you do has a greater meaning and purpose behind it. That’s not to say that everything you do has to initiate change across the entire planet. It could simply be world-changing in the bubble that is YOUR world.

Getting More Focused

With this understanding of myself it is time I get more focused. I’m generally a focused guy, but typically my energy is misplaced. I have dreams, but I’m constantly sucked back in by my corporate job. I keep telling myself about all the independence and freedom I wish to have, and how nice it would be to have the luxury of doing meaningful work that I’m passionate about for the rest of my life. I find myself waking up on Mondays and get back to the rat race. “I could use this time to work on my stuff, but there’s a possibility that this quarter I could get that next promotion!” STOP IT! (obviously I’m yelling at myself). I have to remind myself that the last promotion wasn’t that great, and that it came several years too late after lots of hard work and overtime. You have to respect yourself more…you’re better than that.

I Don’t Know if It Will Work…

The more focused part of this post circles back to the title. The reason I don’t invest more energy into the passions that I have is because when you consider the idea of getting paid to do them it’s easy to tell yourself “I don’t know if it will work”.

I’m going to focus on logo design, web-design and web-development. If I could loop real hip-hop and r&b music in there somehow, and fitness, that would be awesome! Everyone tells me that it’s a hard road to step out and do something on your own, or they tell you about their failed attempts. When you consider these things you get in your own head and question why would it be any different for you?

The things I mentioned I don’t enjoy necessarily for money. I’d love to get paid to do them, but I truly am interested in those things. Each of those trades and skills bring me a great deal of joy. The reason I wish to do them is because they add intrigue into my life. I don’t know if I can make any money doing them…

And That’s Okay!

You need to stay focused on the intrinsic properties of your aspirations and get out of your own way. Don’t not attempt to try because of self-doubt or negativity from your colleagues / friends / family. Step out on faith and do what you love simply because you love it. Then figure out how you can inspire and help others along in their journey who enjoy these same passions. It all starts from a pure place, follow your heart and you’ll never go wrong.

Be blessed and I love you all!

P.S. Thank you to my 5 Followers and Going Forward…

Thank you all for reading any one of my lengthy entries. You all are awesome and I hope that you got whatever you needed from whatever you read.

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